Let us talk about that one subject everyone dreads, the subject that people only talk about when it’s absolutely necessary. The subject we will hide from at all costs. If you’re African, I’m not writing about sex, my parents read my blog and I still live under their roof and they bought me the data I am using plus the laptop so no, I’m not going to write about it. I want to talk about that one thing probably you discuss with your psychologist during psychotherapy, let’s talk about suicide. What is suicide? Is it selfish? Should we judge suicidal people? I am about to offer you insight to my thoughts on this very sensitive issue. As I grab my painkillers (only the Lord knows where I placed them), turn the music on and listen to Coldplay, I love that band. I honestly think they are fantastic. Fix you especially.
Suicide, such a heavy word to utter and it takes a very heavy heart to think about it as a solution. It is the act of taking one’s own life, intentionally, that is. Most people tend to overdose on meds but it’s not the most decent way to go, most meds shut down your systems one by one and that’s not something you would like to go through or hanging yourself aka affixiation, this is probably one of the most painful ways to go, oh well. Most people say suicide is selfish, in my personal opinion, I don’t think it is… I know it isn’t but in your head you’re like he/she is/was only thinking about themselves and you are supporting their diabolical acts? For some absurd reason, every suicidal person imagines the world would be slightly better off without them (frankly, the world would be way better without the homophobic, islamophobic, racists and Donald Trump). You think of your pain, the things that you’ve gone through and the things you think you are putting other people through and you think you aren’t worth it, you feel worthless, you feel life isn’t worth living and you think suicide is the only answer. But I want to tell you suicide is not answer, if you’ve been thinking of suicide of late, you think it’s the only thing that makes sense, stop, I don’t know you and maybe you don’t know me but I’m here to tell you that you are worth it and you’ll tell me that I don’t understand what you’re going through which is probably true but I’m here to tell you suicide is not the answer.
You are caught up in the negativity, you are caught up in the awful things going on in your life and you wish you could change all that, you wish you could end the agony, pain and suffering and you think suicide is your answer, then you are wrong. Life, such an intricate thing, I don’t fully fathom it and I don’t think I will but here’s the thing we don’t have control over the past. What has happened, has happened. Things happen and the best thing to do is learn from it and don’t quit. If you’re battling suicidal thoughts, I would like to tell you that you are a warrior and you should keep on fighting, don’t end your life. I know you’ll tell me it would be so much better for everyone if you died but you’re wrong.
You will tell me the sun will still rise and set, the earth will rotate, the stars will still shine at night and that the flowers will still bloom. But I’d like you to take a minute to think of your mum, dad, best friend, boy friend/ girl friend, deskmate, workmate think of everyone you interact with daily. Think of the dreams you’ve had since you were seven.Do you think it will be the same? You think school will fill the same without you? You think your dad will not miss yelling at you to get off your phone and socialize? You think your best friend won’t miss the shirt he/she hated the most? Who will achieve these crazy ambitious dreams you have? If you are a religious fellow, I will tell you there’s a reason God put you on earth. I don’t judge or blame you for feeling hopeless but don’t do this, yeah? You’re amazing, intelligent, handsome/beautiful and you are worth it. If you’re feeling suicidal PLEASE GET HELP.
Project Fmile, a project with a vision, with a vision to make Kenya a happy Kenya, with a dream to spread awareness on mental health and suicide. 7128 people committed suicide in 2016, these were lives lost, dreams lost and we would like to prevent this. Feeling suicidal? DM us @fmileofficial on Instagram and Twitter. The WhatsApp number is coming soon. I am here for you too, so DM me on my instagram page @iamabiero